So, let's talk about the last year....because YES it's been a year since I last posted here.
In my continuing journey to better my health, I've lost 107 pounds total in the last 1.5 years but put 5 back on recently. I'm back on track with my food and exercise choices and feeling better every day now! It's probably the hardest thing I've done in my life as I am addicted to food....good food....sometimes unhealthy food (lookin at you SUGAR). Therefore I have to make a conscious decision on a daily basis to feed my body the right type of food and to make it move. Not always easy as I'm sure many, many of you are aware!
I think we are always chasing the ideal body image and while my health is paramount to everything I do....I've come to realize that I need to love myself for who I am right here and now. I know what needs to be done to be the best me I can be and I'm proud to say that I'm taking those steps to get back on track! So look out summer of 2019 -- version 3.0 of Jennifer is coming in like a blaze!
In the past year I also fell in love. It was lovely....and then it wasn't. I'll just say that I truly believe that some people come into our lives for a specific reason. To teach us. To guide us. To make us wake up and pay attention to what it is that truly matters to us. To also make us stop and set boundaries. If you find yourself questioning your beliefs and opinions or you edit your words before you speak...it's a sign that the fit is not right. It had been a long time since I'd been in a relationship and there was a part of me that didn't quite know how to "relationship" anymore! I kind of had to relearn these skills and I wasn't always graceful at it. But I was authentic and as honest as I could be, until I lost me. And that my friends is where the unraveling always takes place, doesn't it? When you place too much importance on another person to fulfill your happiness you end up in a cyclical spiral of self doubt, insecurity and chaos. You have to be mature enough to recognize that you have some toxic traits also. It's not always the other person. Recognizing this has been hard but I feel that I'm better equipped for the next man that comes into my life...whenever that will be:) Self growth....it's a bitch but it's necessary!
I'm still working on figuring out what direction this blog is going to take from here. I think it's going to be a mix of lifestyle, food and travel photography. I'm not going to put pressure on myself in regard to posting but my goal is to shoot for a weekly post to start. I also promise to open my Etsy shop back up this summer and will let you know when that is ready to roll! Many good things to look forward to this new year and I hope you want to join me!
As always, you can find me over on Instagram (Orange.Tree.Square) ...that's where I express my creativity and true self almost daily. Come find me!
Peace and Love,
Jenn
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