Life. It's pretty weird sometimes. The past 10 days have been exhilarating and maddening at the same time. I've been confronted with someone who, for whatever reason, chose to dislike me before they even got to know me. Then someone from my past came back into my life. Conversations with both these people have made me question if who I've become is the best version of myself. And the answer is....yes:)
Who I am today is a culmination of many years of ups and downs. Joys and sorrows, happy and sad, immaturity and wisdom. I've come to a place in my life where I no longer feel the need to apologize for my past mistakes. They are what they are...but they are also exactly that.....the past.
I tend to over-analyze every single little nuance in my life. I replay conversations with the important people in my head...over and over and over again. Maybe I shouldn't have said this....maybe I should have instead said that. It's exhausting!!! But you know what....not everyone is going to like you. And that's okay! I know my heart. It is a good and loving heart. If this person who didn't give me a chance knew this, I'm sure we could be friends. But it's not my job to convince someone else on how to feel. It's just my job to be me.
So, I guess what this post is really about...is if you are struggling with defining who you are and if you are "good enough", STOP. You are good enough. Shit, you're awesome!! Strive for happiness in your life and if others don't want to be a part of that...then that's their loss:)
Shine on my friends,
<3
Jenn
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